{"id":1851,"date":"2017-11-09T14:57:00","date_gmt":"2017-11-09T12:57:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mazion.org\/?p=1851"},"modified":"2026-09-29T17:38:01","modified_gmt":"2026-09-29T14:38:01","slug":"tacerea-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mazion.org\/en\/2017\/11\/tacerea-2.html","title":{"rendered":"T\u0103cerea"},"content":{"rendered":"

Trei ore. De at\u00e2ta timp st\u0103 acolo, \u00een colt, ghemuit pe vine. Se uit\u0103 la podeaua murdar\u0103. Ciment infect \u0219i rece ca gheata. Plin de scursori. As vrea s\u0103 ii ofer un scaun dar nu am asa ceva. Celula este mic\u0103 \u0219i are doar un pat de fier. F\u0103r\u0103 nimic pe el. Fier rece. Poate i-as fi oferit un ceai sau m\u0103car un pahar cu ap\u0103. St\u0103 ,m\u0103 uit la el \u0219i nu \u00eemi dau seama ce face. Se g\u00e2nde\u0219te ? Este trist ? M\u0103car \u00eeng\u00e2ndurat ? Vrea s\u0103 \u00eemi spun\u0103 ceva ?
\nDe trei ore m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc ce s\u0103 ii spun. Ce s\u0103 ii cer ? Ce ajutor s\u0103 \u00eemi dea ? M\u0103car s\u0103 \u00eel \u00eentreb ce sens au toate astea ? De ce arestarea ? De ce condamnarea ? De ce tortura din arest ? De ce chinurile de aici ? Foametea ? Lan\u021bul ? Frigul ? Boala ?
\nM\u0103 uit la el \u0219i \u00eel vad cum st\u0103 nemi\u0219cat. Nu se uit\u0103 la mine. Se uit\u0103 la ciment. Tace. Tac \u0219i eu.
\nOfff..c\u00e2te as avea s\u0103 ii spun ! C\u00e2te repro\u0219uri urc\u0103 \u00een mine. C\u00e2t am nevoie de un sens \u00een tot. Un scop. O rebeliune m\u0103 umple \u0219i frustrarea se cl\u0103de\u0219te n\u0103valnic. S-a hr\u0103nit ani de zile pentru a r\u0103bufni acum?
\nM\u0103 simt sl\u0103bit \u0219i cu greu mai rezist s\u0103 mai suport \u00eenc\u0103 o zi \u00een temni\u021b\u0103. Sper \u00eens\u0103 ca \u00eenainte de a se sf\u00e2r\u0219i totul s\u0103 \u00een\u021beleg. Eu fantomatic \u0219i el invincibil. Ca o st\u00e2nc\u0103 de marmur\u0103. Incredibil de alb. Albul intensificat de negrul murdar al pere\u021bilor plini de dejec\u021bii. 
\nA mai trecut o or\u0103. In cur\u00e2nd se va lumina. M\u0103car de ar spune ceva. M\u0103car de m-ar privi. M\u0103car de as putea articula un singur cuv\u00e2nt. Primul care ar rupe z\u0103gazul dup\u0103 care ar \u00eencepe un \u0219uvoi de repro\u0219uri, \u00eentreb\u0103ri \u0219i argument\u0103ri. Cuv\u00e2ntul st\u0103 \u00een\u021bepenit \u00een g\u00e2t. L-as \u00eentreba ce s-a \u00eent\u00e2mplat cu ai mei. M\u0103car at\u00e2t s\u0103 \u0219tiu. Dar el st\u0103 nemi\u0219cat. Ghemuit pe vine. De patru ore m\u0103 cert cu el \u0219i cu toat\u0103 lumea \u0219i acuz, cer\u0219esc, implor, blestem. Tace. \u00cemi este fric\u0103 \u00eens\u0103 c\u0103 a auzit toate vocile din capul meu. De fapt sunt sigur c\u0103 le-a auzit. Poate de asta tace.
\nSoarele se preg\u0103te\u0219te a r\u0103sari. Cerul \u00eenghe\u021bat \u00eencepe a se lumina. Fierul gratiilor are chiciura pe el. Ridic privirea \u0219i caut primii zori. C\u00e2nd m\u0103 uit la el \u00eel v\u0103d ridicat. St\u0103 \u00een picioare. Capul ii atinge tavanul celulei. Acum se uit\u0103 la mine. Nici o expresie pe fata de marmur\u0103 alb\u0103. \u00cencet se \u00eentoarce \u0219i d\u0103 s\u0103 plece. Cuv\u00e2ntul r\u0103bufneste :
\n– Mul\u021bumesc Mihail !
\nSe opre\u0219te, \u00eencremenit pentru o secund\u0103. St\u0103 nemi\u0219cat o clip\u0103 lung\u0103 c\u00e2t o eternitate. Ce este o clip\u0103 \u00een temni\u021b\u0103 ?Sau pentru el ? Pare c\u0103 ezit\u0103. Apoi dispare. O explozie de imagini \u00eemi suprasolicit\u0103 mintea : copil\u0103ria, prima iubire, primele idealuri, prieteni, o m\u00e2n\u0103 de bebelu\u0219 pe m\u00e2na mea, z\u00e2mbetul unei trec\u0103toare, miraculoasa alee din parc, primul s\u0103rut, o str\u00e2ngere de m\u00e2n\u0103 cald\u0103 care m\u0103 cuprinde, un deal \u0219i o vale ca o doin\u0103, o pisic\u0103 lene\u0219\u0103 pe un pervaz, r\u00e2sete \u00eentr-o mic\u0103 c\u0103m\u0103ru\u021b\u0103 de c\u0103min, penumbra unei chilii….
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– Cineva s\u0103 aduc\u0103 dracului un sac c\u0103 mai avem un \u00eenghe\u021bat !<\/p>\n

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Trei ore. De at\u00e2ta timp st\u0103 acolo, \u00een colt, ghemuit pe vine. Se uit\u0103 la podeaua murdar\u0103. Ciment infect \u0219i rece ca gheata. Plin de scursori. As vrea s\u0103 ii ofer un scaun dar nu am asa ceva. Celula este mic\u0103 \u0219i are doar un…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_kad_post_transparent":"","_kad_post_title":"","_kad_post_layout":"","_kad_post_sidebar_id":"","_kad_post_content_style":"","_kad_post_vertical_padding":"","_kad_post_feature":"","_kad_post_feature_position":"","_kad_post_header":false,"_kad_post_footer":false,"_kad_post_classname":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[33,34,44,45,46,56,57,60,72,76,77,91],"class_list":["post-1851","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-religie-si-mistica","tag-etica","tag-filosofie","tag-idealism","tag-istorie","tag-iubire","tag-misticism","tag-moarte","tag-morala","tag-politica","tag-razboi","tag-religie","tag-stoicism"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mazion.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1851","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mazion.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mazion.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mazion.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mazion.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1851"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/mazion.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1851\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":51703,"href":"https:\/\/mazion.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1851\/revisions\/51703"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mazion.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1851"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mazion.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1851"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mazion.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1851"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}